last weekend

this is the last weekend for my holiday. this is a semester break which lasted for 6 weeks. but i felt it is still too short... just a glimpse of eyes, my holiday is coming to an end. kind of moody here T.T

especially when you give me a hope, but then tell me it is just a dream. how hurt and sad was that...

finally had a dinner together with my parents. but now still waiting for them. my hunger no longer felt. not even have the appetite to eat. moody-ing

by the way, yesterday was a good day. though we didnt make it to swimming due to the events held there, i had a joyful saturday.

第一次尝到麻辣干的肉骨茶，吃得我一把鼻涕，一把眼泪。真好笑。XD

after that raining heavily, a friend kept calling to buy movie for us. alright, we got a movie ticket at pavilion, the treasure hunter 刺陵 8.30pm...

that time was only 4.30pm and 4 hours distance in between. go back home then. lol. continue teaching him to play fur elise. haha. not bad, this fellow can learn fast :)

we were late for the movie, it is the first 4 rows. by the way, still can watch it well without any neckache. lol.
when the movie ended, it was already 10.30pm. zzz... my time to bed~

four of us went to pat kin pat sun. stymn asked why not bat kin bat sun? i answered "it sounds like there are many bats over here". lol

this was the second time i came out with his girl friend. when there is a moment where we were left two together, we spoke a lot. lol. she is a kind girl.
nice to meet you & hope you two stay sweet together.
dont be sad anymore ^^

holiday is ending soon...

such a sadden news. my 6 weeks is going to be ended. next saturday i'm going back to kelantan again T.T

there is a very true saying in chinese. 快乐不知时日过。快乐的日子真的过得很快，回想过去，真的很不舍得。眼看过去好像刚开始放假而已，还没玩够，还没真正地陪在父母身边。真的很不想离开家友去到遥远的吉兰丹念书，很不愿意，但也在那里渡过了一年半的时间，还有一个学期就大考，就能决定我是否能出国深造。一方面很担心我的大考不及格，另一方面又很不舍得离开这里，去到更遥远的英国3年。。。 回来时一切都已变迁。。。 不敢想象，直到把握现在， 好好地努力，抓紧每个机会，无怨无悔 :)

a summary of my holidays.

22-28 dec
campus training at Kuantan. although it only lasted for 1 week, but it was the most enjoyable period i had. a regular spiritual life with all the words of God and the exercising of our spirit, God-man living, preaching the gospel and so on.
Praise the Lord for His economy!

after the training i was back to the world. busying hanging out and didnt touch my book to do homework or any revision. Oh Lord Jesus, now feel so regret T.T

by the way, i continue my piano lesson and learned some beetoven and richard clayderman songs. holiday is not wasted.

after the STPM examination, my secondary school friends were calling me out. haha. it was great to see them again. a memorable outing to mid valley and took ampang yong tau fu as lunch.

going back home the day after tomorrow XD

recent days really free. simple work had been done and classes are reduced to the minimum.

thanks dad for booking an expensive flight ticket for me to go back...
that time he was pacifying me that i will come back home safely, dont worry about the hiking to mount stong. he has the confidence on me. as action proven, air asia ticket on thurs night, 9.10pm is booked.
hooray~
i finally can enjoy my semester break until 2 jan 2010. wow~

2012 seems a hot movie now. hope i can get the ticket when i back kl~

all the best in spm and stpm.
guys, after your stpm, as promised... we will go for tour. gambateh~
the grace of God is sufficient for us :)

waiting for boarding at lcct

Yawning...

back to kl seems busy. yesterday slept at 3.30am and woke up at 8am. tired tired...

now have to go back kelantan again... but 5days later i will enjoy my semester break. yeah~ happy~

waiting for boarding now. tiring... 1 hour later will back to foreign land. will sleep soundly directly :)

going back home tonight XD

3 continuous blog im writing in class. hehe.

finally going back home tonight. now a bit regret to become a filial daughter who helped dad to save money. instead of taking flight to reach home today, i said "dad, expensive, to and fro nearly RM 200, i can take midnight bus to come back." ><>

blogging in the morning in class again~

haha. thanks God no longer a free day today. i will be having class from 8.45am to 4pm. haha..
actually already finish syllabus, classes also seems relaxing. take it easy~

try to improve my English by blogging. trying to blog everyday now XD

finally can go back home for a short while tomorrow night.
sleepless night on the bus and only reach 8hrs later at PWTC, tentatively 5.30am (yawn)

too many plans, meet up with friends, with parents, missing my hometown food and etc etc...
but for sure, sat 4pm will be going to graduation meeting at pj. then rush to lcct again for night flight to foreign land again.

by the way, kl~ im coming~

blogging in class

lolz. too free nothing to do and blog in class.
im such a good girl woke up earlier and came to class punctually.
"happily", morning class canceled. good or bad news? wahahaha.
just online here, until the next class start.

recently is extremely free. after coming back from the camping, totally holiday mood. syllabus finish, all projects, assignments submitted. what to do here? gonna fat mou already. lolz.
let me go back home pls...

however, i found a good book to read, "Watchman Nee, A Seer of the Divine Revelation in the Present Age". it touches a lot of my experiences and i can't stop reading.
available in www.lsm.org

i also try to borrow novel to read. to fill my leisure time here.
can't wait to go back home.
the day after tomorrow~!
kl, im coming~

sem break~ my dec in kl... longing it eagerly~~~ long till neck growing longer as a giraffe. lolz.

ciaoz 1st~

smk dabong + gunung stong.

just back from camping again. previous scout camping didnt blog about it also. hehe. i have reasons for it:
(i) connection problem
(ii) time constraint

it is monsoon season at east coast here. can see from the picture. houses were flooded.


even during the scout camping had become inconvenient due to the rain.
however, our next camping still carried on. every lecturers and all our friends and also parents and even we ourselves also felt dangerous to go camping again. but... still go for it.
even the departure day it was raining non stop...

1st two days was school visit. everything going fine. the last day some students cried for our leaving. im still learning to be a teacher and need to be proactive in every activity though it was really exhausted.
preparing the students for the night performance. i cant dance well, just directing the music aside. hehe. they can dance well also. never underestimate their ability. Carlifornia dreaming was the song XD

i was one of the facilitators in this group, they are presenting their cheer on the stage. they can do it!
English should not be an obstacle for the students in rural area.

we also interview the community there.

pak cik who sell roti canai. he worked in KLIA before. shared a lot of experiences and all our questions were answered perfectly. dont judge the book with its cover. he is knowledgeable.
1 question: is it true that problematic teacher sent to rural school to teach?

after 2days at smk dabong, hiking to Gunung Stong still carried out. Gunung man, dont play play! the day we climbed the mountain it was raining heavily. wearing rain coat and reached the campsite beside the waterfall.


is it far enough? the place we achieved! no current, no water. we got the light source from torchlight or candle. water source from the waterfall. this is how the indigenous lives. i experienced it for 1 night :)
slept in wet tent, freezing and pain all over the body XD
you know how blissful you are to sleep on a comfortable bed?

there are too much to share. i think it's enough for now.
no current in the whole maktab here.
laptop battery gonna finish.
holiday mood~!
cant wait to go back home ><
all the best in stpm~
and...
merry christmas~
hohoho...

frozen blog

such a long time didn't blog here, nearly become a frozen blog.
but i myself, everyday go to view others blog XD

how come i didnt write on my own blog?

here i come...
hehe...

can i make blogging become my habit?
there are so many benefits of blogging.
i most appreciate that we can share our daily experiences and feelings with friends.

today, after i viewed huai huai's blog, was so sad and worried of her. i had the same experience with her before. i hurriedly pick up my phone to call her. i don't know how to comfort her but pray with her. we were so touched. tears were filled in my eyes... i believed her also, just don't hope to see the tears trickling down her gentle cheek.

the power of God and the mutual friendship.
suddenly, i miss all my friends there...

hope they are doing their best preparation in stpm
and
may the grace of God be with you all =)

what shall i do now?

"grasp the time" always in my mind but i didn't practise it in my daily life...

i have a to-do-list in my notebook but i ignored it. even until this moment, i'm facing the laptop didn't do any necessary things. just bear in mind, 6pm fetch mom back from work.

• official document (tomorrow go putrajaya)
• assignment (go library, when?) (do it at home, started?)
• shopping with family
• watch orphan (shall i complete the important things or leisure come first?)

bible verse:
matthew 7:13-14
"enter in through the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who enter through it.
because narrow is the gate and constricted is the way that leads to life, and few are those who find it."

there is a trend in today's age. many follows and the gate is widely open. undeniable, i'm following it too... i feel so meaningless and not even know 'what shall i do now'...
time is passing moment by moment, still love the 'life's brief candle' by william shakespeare. last word 'signifying nothing'...

only God can fill my empty spirit and guide me to the correct path. but few find the way... i have to be awaked! be vigilant! be decisive and give Him the pre-eminence as He is living in my spirit!

at home

1 week holiday is started. today is the 4th day of my holidays, and 4 more days i will be going back kb.

i'm at home now, but my brother is not here. i couldn't see he is sitting on his rocking chair, i couldn't hear his voice,his laughter and his shadow. gor gor, i want to hold your hand and walk with you...

i had a private message in skype and posted on facebook :
"gor gor, im missing you. missing your smile, missing the moment we were holding hands and walked together. i still couldn't accept the depature of your soul :.( "

feelings can be expressed in words and tears is the overflowing of sadness.

i have lost my only brother

it has been 48days i didn't go back home. another 12days i will be having 1 week break. but.. but...

on 8/8/2009, 8.45pm... i receive a death news from home.

dad : gor gor just passed away half an hour ago...

my tears started to trickle down my cheek. why is this happening? it was too sudden, i couldn't accept it. until i saw him in the coffin... it is a truth...

mad by neyo

the songs i'm listening and the videl i have watched.

haha. hello sohurtishblogspot~ it has been more than 1 month remain untouchable.

here i come...

previously was fully occupied. after 1 year foundation, i had my first mock exam, which is also the first exam i have ever had in the varsity level.

now,it was over. im heading off to kl~ a place that belongs to me. lets embrace~

packing up is tentatively done. now is sucking blood by mischievous mosquitoes. they like to leave their love signs on my rabbit leg. wahahaha.

tomorrow departure to kl is for the purpose of our class organised education trip.
first night will be watching 'toilet' at klpac.
this is our virgin trip that has undergone all the obstacles and hardship.
turmoil and turbulence ruined our past time.

7am, 24 may 2009... we will be leaving...
the sun is always blinding me (darren hayes) ending...

Dream

previously i had read numeral of essay about dream. it is something people aim for. does it fulfilled in real life?

today in class, i had knew a dream of my classmate. i saw her eyes was filled with tears... i was so touched by her...

she performed well in her previous examinations. she is eligible to be a doctor and she did finish her pre-medic at india. it was a perfect route for her to fulfill her dream to be a doctor. but... due to parents' wish, she was here with me. teacher training college, training to become a teacher.

what about her dream to be a teacher? is it sink to the deepest part of the ocean? from her says, she is willing to follow her parents decision...

but... it's your dream... parents? yourself?

molly, i hope you will have a future that you wish. all the best~ i'm proud to be your friend.

2nd semester as MARJON student

MARJON - University of Plymouth, St. Mark and St. John, United kingdom.

beginning 1 month didnt get any assignment. step into the month of brother March, all the assignments from sister Jan and brother Feb are coming...

so far 4 assignments in hand.

organise hockey tournament

social studies presentation

moral presentation

role play

cultural performaces : kungfu dance and dikir barat.

heavy workload is back. water shortage is back.

the sky seems know our burden of work, shedding tears for us every recent days. 

i felt the sky is also type of satire. it's willing to fall the rain on ground but not for our daily usage. 

felt certain instant chatting messenger is not good for use anymore.

it doesnt suit me.

i dont like it.

i dont like someone just walk  in my life and ruin it.

i dont like someone affect the relationship between another one and i.

when will this come to an end?

this is such a wonderful world to live.

Lochinvar

O young Lochinvar is come out of the west,
Through all the wide Border his steed was the best;
And save his good broadsword he weapons had none.
He rode all unarm'd, and he rode all alone.
So faithful in love, and so dauntless in war,
There never was knight like the young Lochinvar

He staid not for brake, and he stoppd not for stone.
He swam the Eske river where ford there was none;
But ere he alighted at Netherby gate,
The bride had consented, the gallant came late:
For a laggard in love, and a dastard in war,
Was to wed the fair Ellen of brave Lochinvar.

So boldly he enter'd the Netherby Hall,
Among bride's-men, and kinsmen, and brothers and all:
Then spoke the bride's father, his hand on his sword,
(For the poor craven bridegroom said never a word,)
'O come ye in peace here, or come ye in war.
Or to dance at our bridal. young Lord Lochinvar?'

'I long woo'd your daughter, my suit you denied;-
Love swells like the Solway, but ebbs like its tide-
And now I am come, with this lost love of mine.
To lead but one measure, drink one cup of wine.
There are maidens in Scotland more lovely by far,
That would gladly be bride to the young Lochinvar.'

The bride kiss'd the goblet: the knight took it up.
He quaff'd off the wine, and he threw down the cup.
She lookd down to blush. and she look'd up to sigh.
With a smile on her lips and a tear in her eye.
He took her soft hand, ere her mother could bar, -
'Now tread we a measure!' said young Lochinvar.

So stately his form, and so lovely her face.
That never a hall such a galliard did grace;
While her mother did fret, and her father did fume,
And the bridegroom stood dangling his bonnet and plume;
And the bride-maidens whisper'd, "Twere better by far
To have match'd our fair cousin with young Lochinvar.'

One touch to her hand, and one word in her ear.
When they reach'd the hall-door, and the charger stood near;
So light to the croupe the fair lady he swung,
So light to the saddle before her he sprung!
'She is won! we are gone, over bank, bush, and scaur;
Theyll have fleet steeds that follow', quoth young Lochinvar.

There was mounting 'mong Graemes of the Netherby clan;
Forsters, Fenwicks, and Musgraves, they rode and they ran:
There was racing and chasing on Cannobie Lee,
But the lost bride of Netherby ne'er did they see.
So daring in love, and so dauntless in war,
Have ye e'er heard of gallant like young Lochinvar?

happy belated valentine

such a busy valentine day.. not busy for dating, in contrast, no dating at all.

accomplishment on the journal writing has given me a way to blogging here.

this year valentine was a replacement class for the cny holiday. due to the tiredness, drag until 7am only crawl up from bed. started off a fully-occupied day with a exhausted body. classes followed by preparation of forum, practice of choral speaking, meeting with director and.... huh... dusk...

back to the hostel still facing a water shortage. online... saw a lot of "happy valentine day". in fact, valentine is nothing for me. even chatted with a friend, how he celebrate valentine romantically. haha... wish this couple blissful forever. finally back to my bed tiredly...

start a brand new day... slept in assembly and another talk especially for the girls(w_s_a_e). last minute practice for the forum and carried successfully outdoor. the forum members shared their research and commented refer to the text too often. im the modulator carried out the forum very relaxing and manage the situation well. relax is clearly seen from my sitting position :p
sudden black-out in the whole college and water shortage is life and parcel of life.

24 days more for me to be back to the place which belongs to me.

I Got Flowers Today - by Paulette Kelly

i got flowers today.
it wasn't my birthday or any other special day.
we had our first argument last night,
and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me.
i know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said.
because he sent me flowers today.

i got flowers today.
it wasn't our anniversary any other special day.
last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me.
it seemed like a nightmare.
i couldn't believe it was real.
i woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
i know he must be sorry.
because he sent me flowers today.

i got flowers today,
and it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day.
last night, he beat me up again.
and it was much worse than all the other times.
if i leave him, what will i do?
how will i take care of my kids?
what about money?
i'm afraid of him and scared to leave.
but i know he must be sorry.
because he sent me flowers today.

i got flowers today.
today was a very special day.
it was the day of my funeral.
last night, he finally killed me.
he beat me to death.
if only i had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him,
i would not have gotten flowers... today.

CNY at Machang

here comes the 1st weekend after my cny break. we went to a schoolmate's house at Machang. 3 cars from KPLI student joined with my seniors and my chinese classmates, a total 13 students go 拜年~

my gal classmate and i follow 2 KPLI guy's car. when he know my age, he just call me 小妹妹。那我就只好叫他雄哥哥。虽然8年的岁数距离，和他也很健谈。但我们聊天的范围都太成熟化了，并没有哈哈大笑，但也因此而知道他更多。家伟更说很高兴。。。因为认识那么可爱的我。。。 =。=" * he don't know how mature am i....

雄哥哥，chia wai, tong, yaw, boon seang.

we had a scrumptious lunch and steamboat dinner. cannot be described by words, its too delicious. after lunch we had a walk nearby the house. there are durian trees, coconut trees, nangka trees and a herd of cows. a kl girl is having a touch with the mother nature. just appreciate it.

during and after cny break

during cny i was busy enjoying my wonderful life at kl.
during cny i spent most of my time with my parents at kl.
during cny i slept in the midnight even 4-5am and wake up as the early birds sing.

after the cny i had a black-out in my hostel for more than 24 hours.
after cny im back to the tight study schedule which is from 7.45am until 7pm and night class.
after cny i slept before 12am and wake up at 6.30am.

my life has undergo a dramatic change when i move from kl to kb. in the 1st semester, i never borrow books from library. currently in the 2nd semester, im a regular book borrower every 2 weeks.

today is the tightest class i had. after the sports until 7pm, 8.30pm still have another replacement class. i really feel proud of myself to be so energetic to attend all the classes without yawning.

even in the 1st morning literature class, we did have fun on poems. by paying fullest attention to the class, i really learnt more than usual until an extent to raise up question to enligthen the lecturer.

another lecture we had group discussion and being observed. i enjoy the most in our group discussion which brought up a title "LOVE". We are not focussing on couple love, but look further into love on family, animals, environment and God. we received compliments too. enjoy it~

night class we had a debate. in fact, there is no right or wrong. just make the class in havoc perhaps. btw, everyone of us enjoy it.

dear friends, enjoy your life everyday as our single day is given my the Almighty God. grasp the time and you will never regret.

Jesus love you ~

距离

距离把我的眼目夺去

我看不到遥远

感觉不到邻近

距离，你真的很残酷

你把我和他分开

我看不见他挺立的身躯

看不见他灿烂的笑容

看不见他傻傻地凝视我

看不见他的眼睛含泪

更看不见他因我而哭泣

我不能舔干他苦涩的泪水

不能陪伴在他身边

不能在他疲惫时为他松肩

不能在他临睡前为他盖被

更不能医疗距离带给他的创伤

距离。。。

你令我很想念他

很想念他对我的宠爱

很想念被他围绕着

很想念他紧握我的手

很想念与他相拥至天明

很想念在他怀里的温暖

很想念他亲亲的拥吻

很想念与他满了回忆的地方。

好像快点回到他身边

再次靠在他的胸膛

静静地聆听他的心跳

再一次观看天上的星星在向我们眨眼

我们不会因距离而放弃

乃是化为爱情的力量

我会永远爱你。

你愿意等我吗？

inspired by dhh

happy moo moo year~

moo moo year finally came~ i will be drawing nearer to 20s... yeepee~

first time back hometown to celebrate cny. i have 8days for moo moo year.. not bad o.

1st day of cny is relative visitation. my uncle's house. still remember when they newly moved to oug, my 1st niece still a baby, but now...

the first niece become a 6yrs old pretty girl. the second niece also 4yrs old this year...

besides, i watched 家有喜事 & underworld 3 during this cny. both movie is totally different. one is comedy and another is vampires with lycans... can go for it...

today is my 1st time to go 1U. just 1 day i had explore the whole 1U including old wing and new wing.

lunch at tgi fridays. i feel so so only.. still prefer chillies.

get snap while waiting food.


my tiny dessert - country tropica. few spoon settled.

after that hunt for my stoking. quite hard to look for those fashionable stuff at 1U compare to times square. finally got it... yeah... dont know where to go anymore...

thirsty... lets have a tea at 龙的传人。 need to take number and wait... have the style like chillies at klcc. but the food is definitely fantastic.

just feel want to drink chinese tea then go for it. RM 2 we had 3 cups refillable tea.

上海包很好吃，不记得全名了。一进去就点。真的很好吃哦，第一口汤水就溢进嘴了，第一口还未做好准备，一些汤水还流到碟上了。里面的肉也很赞，味道很够，就算是皮也不马虎，不太厚也不太薄，刚刚好，很合口味。也许是太好吃了，大家都忘了拍照。 就下一道食物补回吧！

海带子拉面，里面除了海带子也有肥瘦叉烧以及一些蔬菜。单单喝汤已经很入味了。share share eat also very full o. scrumptious cny meal~ satisfied meal at 龙的传人。yeah~


very full... lets have a walk at the rainforest at 1U.

the concreate bridge at top floor.

enjoy chinese new year everyone~

sweet hometown

i was arrived at kl on friday, 5.30am.

my classmate take bus came kl too. we had a 1 day spent at kl.

early bird hatched the worm but we chose not to get the worm. but sleep for a while in the morning until lunch to have a wiser decision - hatched the ampang yong tau fu. although it is not the best among the 3 yong tau fu, but it is the only shop opened and tong like it.

just to share the photo captured part. we had dinner at gasoline, times square.

my classmate, tong and night shift tour guide, kai jun.




i also loitered at pavilion and found ALI shirt. such a great surprise for me as i never notice ALI can be found at kl. i have one ALI t-shirt which is bought by my classmate from perak. i was trying on a huge sweater which is bought by another fellow and i bought an ALI cap.

cool man~


~恭祝牛年行好运~

Door knocking at Kota Bharu

today we have the Lord's table meeting with the 4 months trainees. after a short rest, we started to have corporate prayer for the gospel work at kota bharu.

kelantan is an islamic state. Praise the Lord for His economy, the golden lampstand of God has established at this good land.

this afternoon, we went to door knocking to spread out the gospel. we are sharing the mystery of human life.

Genesis chapter 1 verse 26a
And God said, Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness.

dear friends. do you notice the "Us", "Our" is capital letter?
it is God who created us to have God's image and likeness.
we are so different from all the other living creatures! because we have God's image and likeness.

God created human with 3 parts.
the 3 parts are body, soul and spirit!

body is the outermost part. when people hit you, you will feel pain.
soul is our mind(think what to do), emotion(love, hatred..) and will(decision).

the innermost part of human is the spirit!

God created us differ from other animals because we have spirit to contact God.

God want to enter into our spirit to become our life.

the way is so simply....

call on His name, Lord Jesus~ He will dwell into your spirit~

there are few friends are open to the gospel. they are willing to call Lord Jesus~ a auntie that i visited before also willing to listen to our sharings~

it is so wonderful and satisfied in my spirit.

although today is my only free day of the day, 1 week only 1 day rest, tomorrow will be having class replacement, but i spent on the work of God. it will never be a waste.

Jesus love you ...

4 months trainees

Praise the Lord for His economy~

today the 4 months trainees are coming to Kota Bharu to preach the gospel. Hallelujah~

4 months trainees are mainly the brothers and sisters who completed their SPM and join this training for 4 months. they will read 10 chapters in the bible everyday. they will go door knocking to disciple the nation into salvation.

Matthew chapter 28 verse 19
Go therefore and disciple all the nations, baptising them into the name of the Father and of the son and of the Holy spirit.

the Lord charges us to go! to disciple all the nations. to spread the gospel. this gospel is the proclamation of Jesus Christ according to the revelation of the mystery. many of my friends, relatives and many people still dont know about it...

Romans chapter 16 verse 25
Now to Him who is able to establish you according to my gospel, that is, the proclamation of the Jesus Christ, according to the revelation of the mystery, which has been kept in silence in the times of the ages.

just went to the english group meeting. but most of us share in malay. we talked mandarin too. its really enjoyable to share the word of God. its also glad to see the 4 months trainees together.

i knew most of the trainess. such a long time didnt see the sisters who are 1 yr younger than me. its rejoiceful in the body of Christ. a sister even came to hug me before she going to chinese group meeting...

Thank you Lord for preserving us in your One body...

New intake for KPLI students

KPLI - Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Ijazah

for those who obtained their degree and wish to be government teacher can apply for this KPLI course. you will get about RM 1k allowance every month and this course is only for 1 yr before you posted to school.

this year KPLI intake for my campus has 5 chinese which is 3 males and 2 females. i met them after i finished my last lecturer today. it is better if compared to my july 2007 intake which only had 3 chinese, 1 boy and 2 girls. 3 of them are in the MARJON which included me.

i chatted for about 30 mins with the 2 girls. they are having accommodation problems. no individual bed and force to share 1 bed with 2 people or more. the loo inside the room cannot be used. as a new comer, they are having the difficulty to locate the loo... besides, they need to rent a house nearby the campus within 4 days & travel to and fro for lectures... no internet connection... have to imitate me to buy a celcom broadband which cost few hundred ringgit and monthly charges... 1 week of sleepless orientation week... and the most glorious thing----- the rare species in the campus ^^

every cloud has a silver lining....

they are so glad to meet me...

kekekekeke....

其實...

其實很多男孩子都不知道，
女孩子在沖他們發火後自己轉過身卻在不斷啜泣

其實很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子從來不會真正去生他們的氣，
因爲她是真的喜歡他在乎他。

其實很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只會對自己喜歡的男生嘮嘮叨叨，
也只會對自己喜歡的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜歡你，
她根本不會來在乎你關心你，怕你做錯事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜歡你，
她根本不會對你發火不會沖你撒嬌讓你哄她.

你要知道，假若她不喜歡你，你根本就沒有本事讓她哭泣，
讓她即使生氣也不會超過2天。
而這一切都只是因爲她喜歡你，
而這一切都因爲你還不夠在意她不夠懂她。

於是，你們時常爭吵，你認爲她脾氣不好，
她認爲你不夠遷就她。

於是，你們總是冷戰，你以爲她不喜歡你，
她以爲你不在乎她。

於是，你們總是莫名其妙的彼此錯過，
也許擦身而過，本身就是一種悲傷著的無奈與幸福。

要知道，淒美依然是美的一種，並且美的絢麗悲涼而苍桑，
那是更加的美。

因爲她喜歡你，所以她偶爾沖你發火，時常對你撒嬌

因爲她喜歡你，所以她才會生你的氣；

而又因爲喜歡你，她才不會去生氣很久。

你可知道，每個女孩子的心都是水晶做的，
晶瑩剔透，但是很容易就碰傷摔碎。

你可知道，每個女孩子都是不設防的，
你那么輕易就闖進她的心，走的時候卻只留下傷害。

她從來都不知道，這個世界上根本沒有可以讓她哭的 ，
因爲真正值得她哭的那個根本捨不得讓她哭。

她會很矜持，她會很驕傲，她會很冷淡，
她總是嘴裏說著你走開，心裏卻一直叫你留下。

請你張開你的耳朵，也請你打開你的心，
去聽她心裏真正的呼喚，而不是她嘴裏的口是心非。

她會看著你轉身，然後她跟著你轉身，當側身而過的 候，
你看不見她的淚，滂沱在臉上心裏。

如果你喜歡她，請你多陪她；

如果你喜歡她，請你多关心她；

如果你喜歡她，請你多讓她。

如果你喜歡她，請你去聽聽她內心的聲音，那是呐喊着你 請擁抱她。



你愛她，她愛你，如此就已經足夠。
不要試圖讓彼此傷害，
讓彼此更加脆弱悲傷。

你們彼此相愛，
你們需要的是溫暖是幸福是甜蜜是快樂，不是傷害。

不要用沈默宣戰，不要互不相讓，更不要什么話都不说 就冷漠離去。
要知道，你離去的時候，你的眼睛起了霧，她的眼角泛著淚光。

越是安靜戰火就越傳，這是冷戰也是彼此的傷害着
無論是怎样的複合，那些傷口曾經存在，抹不去。

請給她一個擁抱，用你的擁抱去化解她心裏的悲傷與 角的淚水。
她喜歡你，她絕對不會拒絕你的擁抱，
她只會害怕你的冷漠轉身無聲安靜。

請記住，相愛的人不要輕易宣戰，因爲冷戰帶來的傷 ，
也請記住，只要你喜歡她，
沒有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜歡她，就喜歡她的 一切一切。
那么她所有的小性子所有的壞脾氣所有的臭毛病，
在你眼裏都是撒嬌。

也請記住，她喜歡你，她需要的不是你真的轉身，
她只是想你寵她，想你抱她，哪怕，沒有道歉!

2nd semester to be MARJON student

MARJON is stand for the University of Plymouth, St. Mark and St. John. it is situated at the southeast part of the United Kingdom.

im only the foundation student of that university who undergo the 2 years foundation at teacher training institute at kota bharu, kelantan.

14 july 2007 i started my 1st semester. as Charles Darwin stated

“It is not the strongest of the species that survive, not the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.”

thanks God i adapt to the changes to live at outskirt. moving from a cosmopolitan as a city girl to be at a state which stated membangun bersama islam...

thanks God for the golden lampstand established at kota bharu, shining as the luminaries in the crooked and perverted age. still remember vividly in the last semester i suffered from food poisoning until an extent to be warded in the hospital. i missed out an important evaluation from kayaking because of the food in cafe that caused me to suffer from 11 times diarrhoea and few times of vomitting.

apart from the never-ending assignments, group work, individual work, presentations and outdoor activities... i had finally accomplished my mission in the 1st semester... grown to be a stronger girl...

2nd semester has begun....

back the old life that i had adapted. just continue to live out this type of life. everything is still the same. the most enjoyable time is be with the saints, to be preserve in the church life especially during the weekend. the Lord's presence is with me... He is so intimate in my spirit...

the 1st week i only had 3 group works to be done. im still manage to join the blending conference at sungai petani. really enlighten by the testimony of Jesus~

praise the Lord and now.. im waiting for the cny to be back home...

22 jan... im waiting for you...