frozen blog

such a long time didn't blog here, nearly become a frozen blog.
but i myself, everyday go to view others blog XD

how come i didnt write on my own blog?

here i come...
hehe...

can i make blogging become my habit?
there are so many benefits of blogging.
i most appreciate that we can share our daily experiences and feelings with friends.

today, after i viewed huai huai's blog, was so sad and worried of her. i had the same experience with her before. i hurriedly pick up my phone to call her. i don't know how to comfort her but pray with her. we were so touched. tears were filled in my eyes... i believed her also, just don't hope to see the tears trickling down her gentle cheek.

the power of God and the mutual friendship.
suddenly, i miss all my friends there...

hope they are doing their best preparation in stpm
and
may the grace of God be with you all =)

what shall i do now?

"grasp the time" always in my mind but i didn't practise it in my daily life...

i have a to-do-list in my notebook but i ignored it. even until this moment, i'm facing the laptop didn't do any necessary things. just bear in mind, 6pm fetch mom back from work.

• official document (tomorrow go putrajaya)
• assignment (go library, when?) (do it at home, started?)
• shopping with family
• watch orphan (shall i complete the important things or leisure come first?)

bible verse:
matthew 7:13-14
"enter in through the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who enter through it.
because narrow is the gate and constricted is the way that leads to life, and few are those who find it."

there is a trend in today's age. many follows and the gate is widely open. undeniable, i'm following it too... i feel so meaningless and not even know 'what shall i do now'...
time is passing moment by moment, still love the 'life's brief candle' by william shakespeare. last word 'signifying nothing'...

only God can fill my empty spirit and guide me to the correct path. but few find the way... i have to be awaked! be vigilant! be decisive and give Him the pre-eminence as He is living in my spirit!

at home

1 week holiday is started. today is the 4th day of my holidays, and 4 more days i will be going back kb.

i'm at home now, but my brother is not here. i couldn't see he is sitting on his rocking chair, i couldn't hear his voice,his laughter and his shadow. gor gor, i want to hold your hand and walk with you...

i had a private message in skype and posted on facebook :
"gor gor, im missing you. missing your smile, missing the moment we were holding hands and walked together. i still couldn't accept the depature of your soul :.( "

feelings can be expressed in words and tears is the overflowing of sadness.

i have lost my only brother

it has been 48days i didn't go back home. another 12days i will be having 1 week break. but.. but...

on 8/8/2009, 8.45pm... i receive a death news from home.

dad : gor gor just passed away half an hour ago...

my tears started to trickle down my cheek. why is this happening? it was too sudden, i couldn't accept it. until i saw him in the coffin... it is a truth...

mad by neyo

the songs i'm listening and the videl i have watched.

haha. hello sohurtishblogspot~ it has been more than 1 month remain untouchable.

here i come...

previously was fully occupied. after 1 year foundation, i had my first mock exam, which is also the first exam i have ever had in the varsity level.

now,it was over. im heading off to kl~ a place that belongs to me. lets embrace~

packing up is tentatively done. now is sucking blood by mischievous mosquitoes. they like to leave their love signs on my rabbit leg. wahahaha.

tomorrow departure to kl is for the purpose of our class organised education trip.
first night will be watching 'toilet' at klpac.
this is our virgin trip that has undergone all the obstacles and hardship.
turmoil and turbulence ruined our past time.

7am, 24 may 2009... we will be leaving...
the sun is always blinding me (darren hayes) ending...

Dream

previously i had read numeral of essay about dream. it is something people aim for. does it fulfilled in real life?

today in class, i had knew a dream of my classmate. i saw her eyes was filled with tears... i was so touched by her...

she performed well in her previous examinations. she is eligible to be a doctor and she did finish her pre-medic at india. it was a perfect route for her to fulfill her dream to be a doctor. but... due to parents' wish, she was here with me. teacher training college, training to become a teacher.

what about her dream to be a teacher? is it sink to the deepest part of the ocean? from her says, she is willing to follow her parents decision...

but... it's your dream... parents? yourself?

molly, i hope you will have a future that you wish. all the best~ i'm proud to be your friend.

2nd semester as MARJON student

MARJON - University of Plymouth, St. Mark and St. John, United kingdom.

beginning 1 month didnt get any assignment. step into the month of brother March, all the assignments from sister Jan and brother Feb are coming...

so far 4 assignments in hand.

organise hockey tournament

social studies presentation

moral presentation

role play

cultural performaces : kungfu dance and dikir barat.

heavy workload is back. water shortage is back.

the sky seems know our burden of work, shedding tears for us every recent days. 

i felt the sky is also type of satire. it's willing to fall the rain on ground but not for our daily usage. 

felt certain instant chatting messenger is not good for use anymore.

it doesnt suit me.

i dont like it.

i dont like someone just walk  in my life and ruin it.

i dont like someone affect the relationship between another one and i.

when will this come to an end?

this is such a wonderful world to live.